Having SHIT for breakfast

So these passed few days I've been thinking to myself strongly about how my life's direction is going. I fucked up my first junior simester of school and will now have to make up some classes this upcoming Summer.

Looking back at this Simester I'd say I was shit, not my life, not my well being, but me myself was a piece of shit trying to take a pipe that didnt lead to a sewage treatment center.

And for those of you who don't understand the analogy I was dazing my way every week without doing the shit i was suppose to, hoping to see a light at the end of this tunnel we call high school.

I hated myself for these periods knowing that not doing work doesn't get you shit.... No not literal shit but prize shit the "shit" that you want out of life, whether it being:
the girl of your dreams, that really fucking awesome party that you wanted to go to, or just that simple outing with friends..., oh and money... that too..

Taking Initiative

This present week I started to take responsibilty and show initiative for the shit i want and what i want is a life worth fucking living for I'm tired of being a lazy ass im tired of people just assuming that i really purposely in all of my life have never done anything to be worthy of my current position in school.

I used to be a straight "A" student then that guy turned into a straight "A-B" student which is pretty okay and that faggot turned into an "A-C" student are you seeing a pattern here? and that bitch degraded himself into the grounded piece of diamond that is so small people don't fucking care...

Why Diamond? The diamond representing that once shining luster that was fucking cut, shitted on, bitch slapped, and still remained like 24 karats , So God walked by and realized hey.... this isn't right, and used his godly godness to fuck it to the value it should be, thus Lance...

And for those of you my so call um "journal readers" which is only like 12 out of my main friend on DA, I thank you for putting up with my shit.. but i donno if i was you and even if i lived in another country I'd fly in a plane come to my house and beat the crap out of my shitty ass for being such a dumbass (LANCE RANTS MORE TO HIMSELF)

... okay that's over

Read this Bonnie cause i know you are...

I quote "I am not Gay, and I never have been gay" from that one recent "gay scandal" this year. I don't even know how i tricked myself to stay and go through with it but im not! no! never...!

I lied to you, not only you, evryone, and I am sorry, The truth is... I just didn't feel right for you, like i knew i would fuck up this second chance, and so when I saw us getting close together again i just squashed that thought the fastest way i could... and knowing that you read my journals posted "Im Gay"

In doing so, my initial intent was for you just to be happy,for us, just to be friends again...

And then you found another, I relly was happy for you, but inside something didn't feel quite right, as if something unfinished was eating me inside out trying to kill me just to finish it off. (lol.. Double K.O.!!)

The truth is i still like you, and i always will, unless of course you tell me otherwise
i will remain persistant with this ,burning passion, this determination inside my heart, to attain you, a true beauty, The girl of my dreams

And so The obvious question-
Will you go out with me again, Will you give this persistant piece of shit a shot at redemption?

If you do i promise that you won't regret this decision i will show you i have changed and i will give you the boyfriend you deserve, one who treats you how a woman wants her man to treat her, instead of being that big plush toy constantly worn out by a little kid.

and if not.. well then that's how it is and the fault is all mine, but know this, I don't want you to take me back based on pitty only do it because you want to.


Oh and How About that Mile Marker

I passed my Drivers Permit test that i've been putting off for about half a year now, something to prove that i wanna get out of this "shit shell" that ive created for myself, and you bitches that can't drive or don't have a permit i will rub this in your fcking face jk I love you all

Oh and also my mom found me a nice 05 lexus and though nor my favorite car or even the one i wanted i'm happy that it's something at least

Im glad im getting a car so i can finally be like one of those guys in the movies and call it "my baby"

HURRR fucking RAY!!!!!

"SHIT" Count

The word "shit" was used a number of thirteen times inthis journal

(for past journal curse word counts please consult Lance)

Because he took his son to take your kid to work day... lol

Lolz so i "was" one of those Black Friday shoppers who camped out into the wee hours of the morning of a local WAL-MART and my mom had about 1hour into the camp changed her mind and decided "it's too cold i wanna go home" So i didnt get to do what i kinda wanted but i still went shopping on Friday =3 got a couple things for myself which i so will not metion clothes?, watches?, games?, you may ask? - i said i won't mention it so why ask lol...?

So i had fun on Friday but the best part of my Friday was the aftermath of everything and watching it all on the local news.

My mom and I were watching TV and we saw the news reviewing some of the Black Friday stampedes and who got injured and what not. When they flipped to a clip of this one lady rushing out of a Victoria Secret with a HUGE bag.

Mind you this was no normal lady... She was fucking fat as hell! Overly obese! And my mom and i could not help but joke around and say DAMN GIRL YOU BETTER KEEP THAT A SECRET!
-Victoria Secret... get it? play on words... lol you dont get it..

And also my personal fave... SOMEONES GETTING A "BIG" SURPRISE TONIGHT!

Who am i to say lol she may be getting something for someone else maybe a daughter, neis, sister, you know? But Damn! The way she ran out that door was liek she was very very eager to try something on..... - i know right its like all of sudden theres these disturbing images in your mind huh? Im sorry but i intended to fill your mind with those images

THERE WAS MY FRIDAY

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On Another Note

For all you MMO players and CARTOON Lovers!

"FUSION FALL Cartoonetwork Universe"
is coming out this January! Ever since i was a little bitty boy i have watched these cartoons and now they're becoming an MMO in their own little worlds HOW FUCKIN' COOL IS THAT!?

- I'll tell you how cool! like an explosion of happines in your mouth! thats how cool...! Actually no thats pretty disgusting but...

You get my point it's pretty damn cool! All your favorite Cartoonetwork characters sooped up in an anime upgraded version of themselves online! But i only wish you got to play as them Its your basic MMO create your own character customize do what u like, side quests and all its gonna be awesome! I have such high hopes for this game and i hope it succeeds!!

It has such high anticiptation from its reviews! And Its on a similar scale as to what SQUARE ENIX and DISNEY did with their characters in their hit series of games
"Kingdon Hearts"

I will be playing this game and trying out its BETA TESTS and i hope some of you out there will as well We have a great adventure ahead of ourselves!

To Sign Up - [link] and hit click the "sign up" link

GREATEST GAME IDEA EVAR!!!!

Lawls so... um i went to "The Queen Mary" a so called actual haunted ship and its fuckin scary lol! How the hell do I get scared?! I mean it wasn't like an actual tour of the ship, well it was a little, but they dressed it up to make it look all halloweenish. I guess its the fact that the place is actually haunted by ghosts or something but i dunno the people in the costumes there were som what convincing! They jump out at you at random i even saw a guy that looked like Jigsaw from the movie "SAW" and that still sortof freaked me out... Jesus and i thought i couldn't get scared but rlly I think I was more shocked than scared because of the random jumping outness ness... ??

Lol but visit "The Queen Mary" a haunted ship dressed up in the spirit of halloween in October otherwise its just a normal haunted ship that they give creepy tours on It's a pretty decent place none the less!

That scared the SH!t out of MEE!

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